There is so many reasons why I love J so much, the list grows each day. Something I have noticed lately is he truly, 100% believes I can do anything I set my mind to. This is the man you should marry. The one who sees your potential and doesn’t hesitate to encourage you to follow your dreams.
I wanted very badly to stay home with our baby boys, but I did have a lot of doubts before leaving my career of 11 years. I wondered if we could budget and stick to it (we still have work to do here). We both made good incomes and one of our incomes was enough to live off of but there is a major transition time from going from two incomes to one. When I was still working we could go out to eat all the time and go for quick weekend trips whenever we had the time. That was the thing, we didn’t have as much time together. Now we have time but sometimes we don’t always have the discretionary income to do whatever our hearts desire, which is okay. It’s great to have the extra money, but I wouldn’t trade the time with my boys for the money again. I doubted our abilities to budget, but J never did. He kept telling me when I was trying to make this decision to leave my career that we would make it work. Here we are, 7 months after me leaving my job and we are making it work.
Still, some days I feel like I am failing at being a stay at home mom. The baby has been cranky and crying all day and my toddler has been defiant. Some of those days I just want to cry, some of those days I do cry. J always hugs me and tells me I’m the best mom and that there will be hard days. Sometimes his hugs are all I need to know that it will be okay and tomorrow will be better.
There are two things I always wanted to do but never had the time when I was working. That was to blog and to start my own Etsy shop. Now that baby B is enjoying sitting in his rocker or swing, I feel like my hands are freed up. I was nervous to do both of these things, but J knew I could do it. He always believes in me and that is invaluable to me.
It doesn’t matter the situation, he never loses faith in me and frankly, he believes in me more than I do most of the time. As we get older we definitely change what we value in our relationships. I know now that J always believing in me means he will always believe in us. I can’t tell you how much love that fills my heart with. That is definitely the man I want to spend the rest of my life with.